>> Tuesday, February 23, 2010
What do you do when you're bored??Blog lor...
I am on attachment now. Working with a company doing garment manufacturing. Well, very interesting. Everyday I look forward to learning new things and I do learn new things.
However, for the time being, we are not doing anything much. Luckily, we have internet supply here. Yesterday, there was'nt!
After I completed the task given to me, I tried keeping myself occupied with the help of facebook and eBuddy. Sadly, after sometime, it's no longer interesting lor... So mundane! The people online oso boring!
That's when I decided to blog!
hmmmm...I just want to share an important rule for families. NEVER take sides. I saw this on a distant cousin's fb profile, liked it and I have something to say about it.
I just had a personal encounter recently. Where there is an issue in the family and people from the family, who is external to the problem, intereferes AND clearly show that they are against you. It hurts lah..!
Yes yes! I know I suck. I can be the biggest bitch! I know I tend to hurt others alot too. I know people can question my awareness on the presence of other's feelings. Maybe, I deserve it.
Still, I can't help but feel so low everytime I think about it. Maybe, I love my people too much. As much as I try to pretend to not be bothered, I sigh in agony deep down everytime I think of you guys.I see so much hatred and attempts to provoke me. I see so much teamwork. Serious! Like data collectors. Keying in every single flaw of mine.
Why? Why do I appear soooo bad? What did I ever do to you guys? Yes I am very easily irritated, I am too outspoken. I tend to speak without thinking. I do see my flaws. BUT still! Why is it that the people I feel I don't have grudges with, and have not tortured, seems to have a problem with me? What is it that is soooo unforgivable? Just my opinions? Like I think your friends matter to you more than family? You think I'm wrong? Ok lah... I'm sorry.
Why must dendam me like babi lemak? I see revenge from you. Why?
I can't stop asking myself why a portion of you have issues with me when the matter does not involve you guys.
I was just unprepared, brought to face a group of my own, with enough collected data of my flaws, bashing me up verbally. OUCH! I was like, "Where the FUCK did this come from?? Where did I go wrong that caused all of you to decide to team up against me?"
Today, I choose to remain numb and not say anything about it anymore because I know if I do, it can go on forever and will never come to an end. I can do that. I can keep my mouth shut, but things can never be the same.
It is not easy to expect me to act like everything is normal after you all have said what you had to say and I have heard what I had to hear. Of course it's easy for you guys. You got the chance to vent your heart out and I only had to eat my heart out!
I hear voices in my head telling me "sudahlah...benda dah habis!" So ya la, dah habis.
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>> Monday, August 17, 2009
The feeling you get when you see your brother slowly growing up. It's amazing!!
Excited for the pictures!
Done with his hair blown nicely with sunsilk serum applied! My good looking brother!!
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>> Thursday, August 6, 2009
I can't wait for the upcoming wedding this november. This is the very first time we're coming up with something really sublime. Everything bit is very detailed and synchronised. I am worried and at the same time super excited for our performance.
We never had dance moves as good as this. I have never seen anyone performing like how we're going to at other weddings. REALLY! I'm serious...! Not like we can execute it 100% perfectly, but I still think it will send a delirium of joy to everyone's heart.
You know the feeling you get when you heart beats really fast and you start tapping your feet and you feel like jumping around?? I think it's like that!! HAHA!! I am so very excited!!
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>> Tuesday, August 4, 2009
I have been really unwell this past few days. My body really aches and I get severe headaches almost everyday.No way. Im not seeing the doctor who prescribed me anti-depressants. Nabey!
I was telling Nurul yesterday that it felt like someone was slicing my brain finely. In malay you call it hiris. HAHA! A super sharp knife slicing your brain into slices of thin meat, roughly, the thickness of dendeng. Imagine........Grrrrrr!SAKIT la sial!
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>> Friday, July 31, 2009
...generally fit in the palm of an adult hand, and are intended to be consumed by an individual in a single sitting...
I'm not gonna start with apologising for having not blogged for the longest time. It sounds so over the top, like you google whores are sooooo interested in reading it..!HAHA! I blog when I feel there is something to share and you all know your friend here has no discipline to stick to one thing religiously. NEVER!
Once, an idiot published on friendster, that I make the best muffins. Well, I think I'm best at making muffins, maybe not the best. You get it?
HAHA. My favourite recipe is the banana choc chip muffins. It's hersheys mind you. It's good! I should have memorized the recipe by heart right now. It's @ my fingertips. In fact, I tend to adjust the recipe a lil bit here and there to get the so-called "desired outcome".
This time I baked them for my sister. It's her last day of work. So they're farewell muffins(whatever!). She has NEVER helped so much like she did for this one. It turned out really good. Not sooo sweet, crispy on the outside, moist in the inside..Just nice..
You can try it out.
Ingredients:
1 cup plain flour,1 tbsp baking powder, 1 tbsp bicarbonate of soda(sieve lah!)
1 cup sugar
3-4 bananas smashed
1 egg
1 cup melted butter(do it in the microwave, it gives the best results.DON'T let the butter boil!)
Steps:
Beat the sugar and egg until the mixture becomes thick. Add in the mashed bananas. Beat urself with fork! Don't keleta use electric mixer! It will harden the muffins.
Alternately fold in the melted butter and banana mixture to the flour.
butter-banana mixture-butter-banana mixture(like that lah!)
Then you add choc chips secukup rasa.
Don't overdo the mixing.
Then can bake. 25 mins to 1/2 hr i think. Depends on your oven. At 160 deg.C. Try la.
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>> Friday, March 6, 2009
Sometimes, it is better to confine yourself.Don’t bother expressing.
You naturally become mute.
Probably, that’s life.
Forget the world you live in; create a new world of your own.
Live in it happily and no one shall care.
Probably, that’s life.
Watching you disintegrate into the pressure of life, with no one to turn to, somehow
develops into a PLAY of life.
Probably, that’s life.
People’s laughter surpasses your screams and cries.
Your feelings seem trivial.
Probably, that’s life….it SUCKS!!
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>> Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Tension headache?Tension headaches are usually triggered by some type of environmental or internal stress. The most common sources of stress include family, social relationships, friends, work and school.
Episodic tension headaches are usually triggered by an isolated stressful situation or a build-up of stress. Daily stress can lead to chronic tension headaches.
It can be treated with painkillers and anti-depressants. Patients need to get treatment for depression or anxiety.
But why?? Why am I diagnosed with tension headache? Do I really think too much? Have I been thinking? What is it that is affecting me? Anti-depressants, muscle relaxers, huh?! I’m fine! Perfectly healthy!
I don’t want to go back to that phase of all those depressing moments. I don’t want to build walls around me. I am fine! I don’t want to let anger conquer me. I am perfectly stable!
Am I already thinking?? Now that’s the problem!! Unnecessary stress!! ARGH!!
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